FOREWARNING: I USE EXPLICIT WORDS, IDEAS AND IMAGES IN MY BLOGSo I've decided to start my own blog. I've taken some time recently to take a step back and look at myself online. I wanted to know who I was. After all, I've recently also realized that I haven't the slightest clue who the hell I really am. So I asked myself.... "How can I get to know who I am?" The best answer.... Google myself. After sorting through the first page of the much more famous Josh Manwaring, Idaho Real Estate Agent and enjoying the page of the Australian Josh Manwaring, who isn't shy about his "Aussie fucking pride!", I realized I'm really nothing more than just another douchebag, shirt and tie, buy my shit salesman online.
I don't want to be a salesman. I sell cars for a living and have for 3 years now. I like cars. I like selling them. I just don't like being a "salesman". I just want people to buy what they want and if they want what I'm selling, I'm happy to tell them about it. I hate having to use terms like "If I could (insert ridiculous offer here), could we send you home in this today? (followed by ear-to-ear car salesman grin)" Nobody wants to hear that shit. And aside from cheese-dick slick back plaid suit car salesmen, nobody wants to SAY that shit either. If you like something BUY IT. Don't show up at some car dealership expecting to be sold by some guy you wouldn't trust any more than the weird child molesting bastard down the street. What's the point to all this car sales rambling? Not sure. I just don't like to have to be a typical salesman. It's created who I am today and I'm not sure I like me right now. I have worried about keeping a professional persona on the internet in fear that if I don't, some day, some customer will google me and find out I use the word "fuck" or worse yet, someone might find out that I'm supportive of those who use drugs (as long as they grow in the ground) for recreational and spiritual purposes. I also heavily support gay marriage too, by the way.
I don't care anymore. If a customer doesn't like me and won't buy a car from me based on who I am outside of work, THEY CAN BUY SOMEWHERE ELSE. If I get fired for who I am outside of work, I CAN WORK SOMEWHERE ELSE (or ideally, not at all- more to come on that subject later). I'm just sick and tired of being someone I'm not for the sake of slinging some product to people. I swear, from this day forward, to be myself(whenever I figure that out) at all costs.
To those of you (especially any family members) who are reading this and seeing words you never thought little "Joshy" would type, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I haven't been true to myself around you. I'm sorry that you don't really know the "real me". I don't believe in using offensive language around those whom it bothers, so I don't (usually). If you have read offensive words on this page, understand that it was YOUR CHOICE. I warned you before you read it. I just put the words on the page, I didn't force you to read them. This blog is a depiction of my world how it really is, not the made for TV version. If you are interested in getting to know me, I suggest you follow this blog. I will use this blog to share and discuss things of great importance in my personal life such as relationships, religion, spirituality, money, emotions, art, music and perhaps even the meaning to life :) You might learn something interesting. I might learn something interesting as well and share it with you.
I'm realizing that this post is seemingly very angry. Understand this: I'm angry with myself (and almost over it) about not sharing myself with the world and keeping who I really am bottled up inside only to share bits and pieces with those I am most close with. I am not angry at the world. The world is a beautiful place full of love and possibility if we just choose to see it that way. This is my choice, to see love and possibility.
I hope I can help you see it too. I look forward to you getting to know me getting to know myself.
=Josh=
6 comments:
Hey. Thank you for this post. I appreciate who you are and everything you have to offer out into this crazy place! You're a good person. I have no doubt, and I'm grateful you are introducing YOU. It's good.
It's nice to meet you too. I'm pretty I sure I understand you. I'm pretty sure what you've got to say I'll appreciate, too.
Because Josh. You're a good person, I realize I've already said that, but who you are is important and you're good company. I couldn't tell you how much I am truly grateful for the friendship we had while I was at Nissan. It's okay if I call it that, yes? Friendships are important to me, and I'm glad that I knew your opinion of my new job. and That you supported me.
My friend, I look forward to many a post. no matter how many words you say that aren't favored. no matter how angry you might be. no matter what you believe.
you're you and that is perfect.
HIGH FIVE.
:)
PS. I like your tree. and your drawings.
PPS. how is your wifey's job search coming along?
Hello Josh!
I love your post. It is honest, and honesty is never a bad thing. As for the swearing... shitfuckassballs! It is nice to know that we Richard/Melody Manwaring offspring are not the only Manwarings to subvert the dominant paradigm - so to speak. Post on!
Tif-
Thanks for the kind words. You always seem to find them for any situation. I hope the friendship we "had" can maybe someday be a friendship we "have" :) -Maybe today.
PS. Thanks about the art
PPS. My wifey found a job! She is the receptionist for a company called Internet Profits Corp. -they help people start online businesses. She likes it and they treat her well, she just thinks it's boring.
PPPS. I don't know if you'll see this as I'm new to the whole commenting part of blogging. I'll figure it out some day.
PPPPS. HIGH FIVE BACK.
we HAVE a friendship. i mis-said that. :) i'm glad you fixed it for me.
i am so glad your wifey found a job. but it sucks that she thinks it is boring. because boring jobs....suck.
my job isn't boring. but they want to change who i am. i get lectured on how my personality isn't fitting. and how i have a bubble that needs to be popped. so i'm not happy...because i never want to change me. especially for a job. i like me. :) i can find another job.
anyhow. good seeing your face today.
let me know when your next gaming night is at your casa, chris and i will come! :)
"I will use this blog to share and discuss things of great importance in my personal life such as relationships, religion, spirituality, money, emotions, art, music and perhaps even the meaning to life :)"
I wanna know the meaning to life! I wanna know the meaning to life! Tell me! Tell meeee! My evil bunny demands you to tell me! Obey the bunny!
The meaning of "LIFE":
1. the condition that distinguishes organisms from inorganic objects and dead organisms, being manifested by growth through metabolism, reproduction, and the power of adaptation to environment through changes originating internally.
2. the sum of the distinguishing phenomena of organisms, esp. metabolism, growth, reproduction, and adaptation to environment.
3. the animate existence or period of animate existence of an individual: to risk one's life; a short life and a merry one.
4. a corresponding state, existence, or principle of existence conceived of as belonging to the soul: eternal life.
5. the general or universal condition of human existence: Too bad, but life is like that.
6. any specified period of animate existence: a man in middle life.
7. the period of existence, activity, or effectiveness of something inanimate, as a machine, lease, or play: The life of the car may be ten years.
8. a living being: Several lives were lost.
9. living things collectively: the hope of discovering life on other planets; insect life.
10. a particular aspect of existence: He enjoys an active physical life.
11. the course of existence or sum of experiences and actions that constitute a person's existence: His business has been his entire life.
12. a biography: a newly published life of Willa Cather.
13. animation; liveliness; spirit: a speech full of life.
14. resilience; elasticity.
15. the force that makes or keeps something alive; the vivifying or quickening principle: The life of the treaty has been an increase of mutual understanding and respect.
16. a mode or manner of existence, as in the world of affairs or society: So far her business life has not overlapped her social life.
17. the period or extent of authority, popularity, approval, etc.: the life of the committee; the life of a bestseller.
18. a prison sentence covering the remaining portion of the offender's animate existence: The judge gave him life.
19. anything or anyone considered to be as precious as life: She was his life.
20. a person or thing that enlivens: the life of the party.
21. effervescence or sparkle, as of wines.
22. pungency or strong, sharp flavor, as of substances when fresh or in good condition.
23. nature or any of the forms of nature as the model or subject of a work of art: drawn from life.
24. Baseball. another opportunity given to a batter to bat because of a misplay by a fielder.
25. (in English pool) one of a limited number of shots allowed a player: Each pool player has three lives at the beginning of the game.
Tell the bunny to pick a number.
I like #24. I don't play baseball, but I'm willing to adapt the philosophy as the meaning to my existence. Let me know when the bunny picks. I'm curious. =)
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